Healing is not Linear
I fell down the rabbit whole of feeling engulfed by my feelings for you. I thought I’d be ok, I hoped I’d be ok. But the recurring ache I’ve felt in my heart time and time again for you has come back home. The past few weeks Ive been questioning myself romantically. Is my love enough for someone to do right by me? Is my love enough for someone to feel at home with me? And the most taxing question is am I good at communicating the depth of my love?…I fell down the rabbit whole. I sent that last question to the lovers Ive known best, all experiences different, all time frames different, yet they all had the same answer. I make them feel like I’ll be here “forever” and if by any chance it ended they know that our love would be strong enough to reconnect us down the line. All different men, yet the same answer… I reconnected with you at a time I needed love the most. I needed security, I needed warmth and I needed to know that this softness that is buried in me under...