Back to Bangkok (Thailand day 10)

It’s Monday and in a few hours I have to catch a flight back to Bangkok. I wake up just in time for the sun to be fully out on the beach. I have about an hour to spare and of course I spend it ocean side. With a quick dip in the water and slight sun bathing my hour is up and I head back to the hotel to catch my flight.

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