Goodbye My Love

Today was my first day without you,

No words said, no feelings exchanged, just silence and the ever ringing thoughts in my mind about what went wrong.

I hate that I am a prisoner to my feelings for you 

That the thoughts of how we exchanged hurt and the way it all played out constantly dances in my mind 

I so badly wanted this to be it, that engagement to be real, your actions to be love and your words egoless

I so badly wanted to feel soft safe and protected 

I wanted what I should not have had, oh love how you exist in the saddest places 

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